I wish I were pregnant

I wish I were birthing the boys - have I lost my mind??!! Of course not at the age they are now, but you understand what I mean!
My apologies for not posting in 10 days. I'm of the mind if you can't be building someone up or having good things to say, don't spread it around. I also realize that people need to know, times are not always perfect, hence the reason for this post. Sometimes this journey is so frustrating! As much as I do not desire to go through another pregnancy, I've wished we were birthing these boys, at least we would know a more precise date of when we get to see their faces again! I miss their mischievous chuckles, their bright smiling faces and the ways they communicated with us even with the language barrier. I so wish we could talk to the boys and make sure they are safe, have plenty of food to eat and just their simple basic needs met. As I concern myself with this a bit much (to the point of worrying) my husband or a good friend reminds me- God's time table is perfect. I know God is growing my patience during this journey! I'm reminded of this for Alexei and Losha-
Jeremiah 29:11-13 "For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. You will call upon me and I will listen to you and answer you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you."
This verse gives me peace that God will give them a hope and a future!